2026-02-25

Made me laugh

 “If someone doesn’t like it, they probably should work on themselves.”

 

 Sometimes ChatGPT can be amusing. Over the past four days, I’ve been feeling abnormal tired, so I consulted ChatGPT about my current lifestyle.

In the chat, I also mentioned my daily fitness routine. And ChatGPT’s response to my push-ups made me laugh:

 1500 push-ups a day is an extreme volume (sometimes I do even more, up to 2000).

Honestly — that’s more than most professional athletes do for a single muscle group in a day.

To be even more precise:

 In bodybuilding, a high weekly volume for one muscle group is considered roughly:

10–20 working sets per week

You’re doing 1500 push-ups a day. Even if I count that as 50 sets of 30 reps, that’s 350 sets per week of a single movement.

That’s a completely different league of volume.

2026-02-22

Carrie as a Warning: When Society Fails the Individual

Carrie 2013
 I’ve already written that I like Chloë Moretz because in her films she often portrays what she herself feels, or she chooses roles that have a clear purpose. One of the strongest examples of Chloë Moretz being true to herself, for me, is The Miseducation of Cameron Post. During the U.S. elections, Chloë Moretz also spoke about her identity and expressed concern about the possibility of Donald Trump being elected.

Recently, I rewatched Carrie (2013). This remake of the classic story by Stephen King depicts a teenage girl who is systematically humiliated by her classmates and psychologically suffocated by a fanatical religious upbringing at home.

“I just want a normal life…”,  Carrie 

After watching the film, I was left with questions. For a moment, I was even uneasy about whether the film could be seen as inspirational or as justifying mass murders, which sometimes happen for reasons similar to those the film portrays. Mass shootings are more frequent in the U.S., but such social phenomena are not limited to one country.

The film ultimately feels more like a warning, I think — that when a person is mocked, ignored, or oppressed over a long period of time, something accumulates inside them. Carrie releases this accumulated pain in a destructive way, killing everyone — maybe in distrust of everyone, including those who stood by her. 

Once again, I see in Chloë Moretz someone who accepts a role because of its deeper intention.

And this is where the film asks an uncomfortable question: What happens when a collective systematically destroys an individual — and can later even pretend it knew nothing about it? In Carrie, this is very clear: collective bullying is not just about a few “bad individuals.” It is a group dynamic. And groups have a strong tendency to protect their own image.

It is true that the bullying, humiliation, and rejection of Carrie are carried out by society in the film, yet in the end almost all of them are massacred — except for one person, who later testifies in court about the unbelievable events.

The climax at the prom is not a triumph. It is a tragedy. Carrie does not kill only those who hurt her. In a state of emotional overwhelm, she destroys everything. The film makes it clear that violence is not justice — it is collapse.

In my view, the film does not say that revenge is the solution. Rather, it points to the possible consequences of the systematic oppression of an individual.

Carrie also has supernatural abilities in the film, specifically telekinesis. When I think about the reasons why I like Chloë Moretz, I wonder whether there is also intention in this aspect. In a way, oppressed individuals may become more aware of systems of oppression for the sake of their own survival; they may learn to read people more accurately and develop an understanding of reality that is inaccessible to anyone except the oppressed themselves. In the film, however, there is something deeper about controlling reality. At the very beginning of the film, Carrie saves herself precisely through this power.

In the context of various societies where systematic oppression, bullying, and isolation exist, Carrie functions as a warning. Chloë Moretz portrays a character who is not a symbol of evil, but a symbol of society’s failure. And perhaps that is why the film provokes such strong emotions — it forces to reflect on where individual responsibility ends and where societal responsibility begins. 

2026-02-20

“Different country, different customs”


 Sometimes I wonder how certain observations could be formulated so that they don’t sound “harsh”. On the other hand, I’ve already shared Nukivalent’s streams, for instance. She has an interesting critique of cultural and social habits. On her Instagram profile, videos often appear in which she points out various cultural and social patterns.

I think that if Nukivalent were Czech and pointed out cultural or social habits in clothing or in self-care, and in Western European countries—such as the everyday norms in the Netherlands or in Germany—she would receive heavy criticism, even if what she said were true. The same could be said about many parts of France and values there. 

But the truth is still the truth—it can be seen and even felt. And I laughed when I saw Nukivalent’s streams for first time, because there is a truth about cultural and social values.

In a way, the criticism from DnB ravers of Central Europe that I wrote about after Hospitality at Melkweg in the autumn is enough for me. However, I don’t generally see those typical Dutch “norms” within these communities. They are commonly visible at Dutch techno, tech-house events, but not at similar drum and bass events. I saw no one the person there. Yet in the eyes there, something glows differently than is natural

It would be possible to talk not only about outward things, but also about inner ones, which are just as visible externally. In some country, there is a saying: “Different country, different customs.” That proverb captures it well. I recently wrote about my “azureness,” which someone say is visible in me when I return from the Netherlands. I stand by the idea that if I had to explain what I mean by identities, it is difficult to explain something that someone does not know, does not perceive, or perhaps does not even acknowledge—likely because of their own social habits.

But this is not only about the Netherlands. Other Western countries also have values that are hard to find elsewhere, or do not exist at all. I would dare to say that also about someone’s in interest, I can claim that someone similar is not exist elsewhere, and they could be misunderstood because of their identities. And these values are visible in everyday life, or the same, within their professions. This is something no one will convince me could be otherwise. 

I know it from myself — sometimes I think I’m doing something that isn’t even around me. But I do it because I perceive it as something natural. And when I go further west, I see all around me what I mean here. And much more — sometimes I see a glow in the eyes that I don’t see anywhere else at all.