Over The Dusk

 A truth about why I don’t want to attend events in Prague is that every time I try, I get the feeling that the journey itself—going there and coming back—could be the last one of my life. 

And the ravers in Prague often look like the event might be the last of their lives too. I don’t feel that way at progressive tech-house events, for example, because the community there seems more mature. But at mainstream drum and bass events or certain techno parties in Prague clubs, I often get these feelings, and I don’t see the environment as safe. 

For example, when I attended events in Prague during the pandemic, there was a constant sense of uncertainty. No one knew what would happen next. And that feeling—that sense of unpredictability and danger—has stayed attached to the experience of going to events in Prague, at the events themselves, and on the way home from them. 

When I visit cities in the Netherlands, I don’t have that same feeling—that the journey to or from an event could be my last. Yes, it’s true that open-air events in the Netherlands usually happen during the day or at sunset (there are rarely open-air events after midnight), which already makes them feel safer. But even at night, I don’t feel the kind of fear I experience in Prague—or not just in Prague. 

And I don’t get the sense from Dutch ravers that the event could be the last thing in their life. They don’t have that energy. 

I think this difference is rooted in the values. There are more common, sustainable values in the Netherlands than in Czechia. 

People in the Netherlands—including younger generations—seem to want to live healthy and wealthy lives, and they also seem more empathetic. In Czechia, I often see raving as an unsustainable path—one that could end within a few months because the lifestyle itself is unstable. There’s also the issue of theft. And many other values just feel absent in Czech reality. 

For example, when I visited Liquicity events in the Netherlands, I noticed the community was younger than the Dutch techno community. That probably reflects the fact that modern drum and bass is a younger genre compared to techno. And maybe modern drum and bass music appeals more to younger generations than to older, more mature listeners. But I’m tired of hearing the excuse that “the community is changing” just because people who didn’t attend Liquicity before 2023 are now showing up. 

Meanwhile, the Dutch techno community often feels quite mature. Western techno has a rich history, and a natural maturity has come with that. There are also younger people involved, of course—but there’s still that foundation of maturity. In Czechia, it’s not like that. At Czech techno and drum and bass events, it feels like there’s constant rotation—generation after generation being replaced—because the events themselves are unsustainable. 

I’ve seen it many times: people end up in the free tekno scene because the regular scene became unsustainable for them. Or because, in Czechia, free tekno has almost become part of the mainstream “culture.” At free tekno events, you don’t need anything—there are no boundaries for behavior. 

From my own generation, I know a lot of stories like this: people don’t want to attend (Czech) techno events anymore because of the realities there. Some of us had addictions—especially to Czech meth—and it was destroying us. We avoid events now because we’re afraid that addiction could come back. In the Netherlands, there are festivals with sustainable policies—like zero drug tolerance—and that makes a big difference. 

Personally, I’m not interested in going back to that reality. After two events in Prague—a drum and bass night (where people applauded Sidney SN because, by mistake, he went to the wrong backstage), and a techno night—I ended up having hallucinations two days later. The walls around me looked like they were moving. This happened at the end of January 2022. I’ve said it before: I don’t know what substance was in my body that night. I also had Omicron that week, and I think there was a connection between the virus and whatever unknown drug affected me. The reasons are speculative—but even speculation taught me something important.  

And I think the sound of mainstream neurofunk at Czech drum and bass events reflects exactly what’s happening in that scene. This music doesn’t speak to mature people—it reflects the unstable, unsustainable reality of the events themselves, especially among the 15–24 age group. 

The reality can be sad, disturbing, or even laughable. Because in the end, the environment is the people. And people shape the reality for themselves. No one needs to stay somewhere they no longer want to be. 

As of 2025, several European cities stand out for their exceptional quality of life, based on factors like safety, healthcare, public services, environmental quality, and cultural offerings. Here are the top 10 European cities renowned for their livability (here is five Netherlands cities in a top):

 1. The Hague, Netherlands Ranked first in Numbeo’s 2025 Quality of Life Index, The Hague boasts excellent healthcare, low crime rates, and efficient public services. 2. Groningen, Netherlands Known for its vibrant student population and green initiatives, Groningen offers a high standard of living with a strong sense of community. 3. Luxembourg City, Luxembourg Luxembourg City combines political stability, a robust economy, and high-quality healthcare, making it a top choice for residents seeking a balanced lifestyle. 4. Eindhoven, Netherlands A hub for technology and innovation, Eindhoven provides excellent infrastructure and a dynamic cultural scene. 5. Basel, Switzerland Basel offers a high quality of life with its strong economy, excellent healthcare system, and rich cultural heritage. 6. Bern, Switzerland The Swiss capital is known for its cleanliness, safety, and efficient public transportation, contributing to its residents’ well-being. 7. Utrecht, Netherlands Utrecht combines historical charm with modern amenities, offering residents a high standard of living and excellent public services. 8. Rotterdam, Netherlands As a major port city, Rotterdam is recognized for its modern architecture, diverse population, and strong economy. 9. Lausanne, Switzerland Lausanne provides a picturesque setting on Lake Geneva, coupled with high-quality healthcare and education systems. 10. Copenhagen, Denmark Copenhagen is celebrated for its sustainability efforts, bicycle-friendly infrastructure, and high levels of safety and happiness among residents. These cities exemplify the best in European urban living, offering residents a combination of safety, healthcare, infrastructure, and cultural richness.

No fate

 I don’t know so exactly if a reports are a fake or my eyes are injured or I have a bad informations but when I see a news with a big boy, I have a doubt that this is a truth or the big boy is just a narcissist or I don’t know if a informations are informations because I don’t know.  

In a way, I had a feeling that the big boy is embodiment of a Nation dream as in a past this a Nation dream was presented like it and because of it I thought that in a way he is possible. But I doubt that this my feeling was a right. 

A doubting is also because a genders that is a freedom how I see a freedom which belong to the Nation dream and a words against looks as a man from 70’s. Maybe a big boy is an old for a world which is possible because now is the future. 

There are a words that someone is a dictator. I don’t know so exactly who is the man who is presented as a head of the protection of a nation and how a things would work when at the power would be someone else, but when someone see a words by a big boy there can exist a words against. 

A man can have a feeling that just no matter who is at power because someone is in a defense and the defense would exist no matter who is at power. 

A truth is that I little laughed when I saw the reason why someone is a dictator. 

When there are the words about a dictator, for example in a United Kingdom mainstream media is an argument, that ‘In Britain, there were also no elections during World War 2. A national government was set up by Winston Churchill in 1940 to see the country through to the end of the war on May 23, 1945.’. 

I think that someone wouldn’t leave his trying because there are a disruptive nonsenses. In a way, the nonsenses were already shutdown with possibilities for a leaving when this will helping for an end.

A man can take a feeling that this can look as a nonsense game with a feeling by a paranoia. Maybe a boy don’t know what there go as in a way a European people don’t understand why there is the war when no one need it all for a better world. 

Or when a man see a articles about that a big boy allowing a ‘aid’ just as a trade with rare earths or metals, the man can see this as a trying for a exploitation and a trade with human life’s who protect not just own nation but who protect Europe itself from a war and dystopian reality. 

A trade with a human life’s seems to be as non-human behavior. 

On other side, a big boy said that a man don’t need an aid. A man can see the controversy in a behavior. A man don’t know why there are tryings for a trade as a ‘aid’ when a man don’t need an aid. 

Or a words in the world, that a war started the side under an attack. This sound as when a war started Western Europe and Germany and Northern Europe. Everyone knows about a submarine in Netherlands waters or about a war or colonized words against Berlin and Germany or a tryings about an air protection in Europe. 

And who doubt that when an asshole stop it all right now that a people in defense stop all their defense and will be an end of an age when the asshole wanted making the world more worst place with a power over.

No one doubt that a man get a support when he will be the aggressor.

I don’t know if this all is a seriously or someone is under disinformations or a big boy think that he is a social worker and he see as a crisis intervention a tryings about friendly approaches to an aggressor when a aggressor is someone else. 

And after it all there will be a time when a man found that the aggressor just used a big boy for other aggression because this can be a truth because a ill person try about it all for all time when he started with his nonsenses. When there were a words that someone wants back a Berlin area or that a tryings about Europe itself, this can make a imagination that among other the someone thought that is possible pretty fast bring down a country for a invasion from Eastern through a Central. And a man think that pretty many people know that there were the tryings for a weakening in a Central Europe country because of it. Probably nothing work like these plans and many people now know about it.

A European man can be shocked that a red man make collaboration with a one of the most oppressive dictator system that their soldiers are as a Kamikaze because the one of the most oppressive system forcing them to no way back because a step back can be die for their family itself.

A man would be glad when an intervention would work but who is in the hope that a way into a red ass is the right way to stop it. 

Or everything is a fake because an inter-dimension reality that is around me but I live in a peace because I know that a reality can work for a concrete human and a reality can be just a fake especially working for a my existence. 

Or there is a message why an aggressor continuing.

Or everything can’t be under a power of a goddess, hope, beauty in the dark times that are upon us.

In a way, some things can seem to be similar to a previous head of a Central Europe country because he also was famous for a disinformations or showing. But there is a contrary that the head had almost no secret about a red flag. And a man know that the country was economically and also non-economically injured for it that in a best don’t work as were the plans. 

And there can be a theory about a man that due a words it could be possible bring down a country that is under an aggression. But nothing like it will enough for another man. And the man will want other and other countries, how the man said it for more times and tried about Europe itself. This sound as when is possible make step back by step back for an idiot when nothing will be enough. Maybe someone has a bad medication or I don’t know why this unreal pain when this could be possible. No one doctor could say that is better suicide for the world than a facing to an issue because the issue have a solution. 

And maybe all is there because someone is betraying own unsustainable reality of a own existence and risking that an end of a own desires for a ‘progress’ which is impossible without a war for it that is impossible winning because someone don’t will leave it for it that there is the reason for a betraying of a reality and because of it there is a betraying of a reality and risking our and own reality. And maybe now whole world can know the hole why someone can be pretty vulnerable. And because of it someone betrayed own reality because whole world now know about the hole. The plan had a hole that about the truth now know whole world. This also sounds as a betraying of own reality because no one would know about it for a winning.

In a past probably a boy was rejected for a reasons that now looks more worst more than before. 

I think that Chloe could be a new candidate because with a current gay woman visage looks as someone who can be in a house. And I think that glamour women of the year in 2023 was right as a now this would be like it in a house. 

But who know a truth of all the news which there are everyday in a many versions than that a truth that see in a mirage when look there on yourself. 

A positive is that I read that most of citizens from a country with a narcissistic head know that a red aggressor is the aggressor and no else is like it. 

Maybe can be better read nothing and that because nothing from a insane make the days better and the days are better without an insane; I think these days how the days can looks for everyone who is out of a soldier reality and don’t read all the confusing insane. 

Shutdown

 I just shut down an Instagram account. I haven’t updated the Sidney SN account for three or maybe even more years—simply because I didn’t want to. I once said that I created the IG account because some people said it could be a good idea. But when a lot of people started checking out the Sidney SN account, it was both unexpected and kind of perfect. 

The interest from the Soulvent Records crew. Your support means a lot. I probably like UK drum and bass more than any other kind, so getting interest from some of the best UK labels is a big deal—big up. Also, when I supported Shogun Audio and they responded in a genuinely friendly way—that was another big up for Sidney SN. 

There were also many more respected names from drum and bass and even progressive scenes who showed interest. Thank you for that. 

And about the IG stories—thanks to C Recordings and others who watched or liked the Sidney SN content or my random stories. Honestly, I saw many of those stories as little bits of nonsense—there were maybe ten of them total in 2024. 

I’ve got a backup of the IG account. Here are some fragments from the Sidney SN Instagram: a backup of the IG. This shutdown isn’t because Zuckerberg suddenly looks like someone who should be shut down himself—but… Maybe the only social media I need now is Blogger :D